Saturday, September 30, 2006

It's a beautiful weekend in San Diego, CA

It just keeps blowing me away that I live in California. I mean, I drive around every day and am amazed at the scenary - mountains, sunshine, beaches, mexicans everywhere (well, it's true - they are everywhere) - I do love it!! I have always wanted to live in California, so now I have my chance.

I know that one of these days we'll leave to go to Arizona - my choice - Phoenix area, so I can get a job, although, I prefer Tucson....I love it! But I just love the southwest and I guess I couldn't get more southwest than San Diego!! At least not without being in Mexico.

Today, I just needed to "run down the street", it's such a hassle to go anywhere....over an hour to just "run down the street" - had to get gas, had to buy parts for his truck - but there is traffic everywhere. There is never a time when it's ok to drive around without a shit load of traffic - well, maybe at 3 or 4 am!!

Anyway, now I'm home, hanging out, drinking a peach schnapps with vodka & OJ. Relaxing on the patio, in the beauty of the day. Not a cloud in the sky, nice and sunny, nice and nice..........Afterall it's the MOST LIVEABLE CITY!! And it's called that for a reason - and it's NOT because of the ease of getting somewhere or thru traffic, it's because the people here are nice, the weather is outstanding and then there's the beach - what can I say about the beach! It's so fantastic........beach, clean water (and compared to the Atlantic Ocean, it doesn't have that "fishy" smell!!) and great sand.

Then there's my love.......he's fantastic....he lets me throw my little hissy fits and is ok with it, but then I'm ok with his too ! We are both so spoiled by each other. And it's been a year since he arrived in Cincinnati to take me away with him - to physically rescue me from my boring, almost ready to die it's so boring, life.

You know, I had a great life in Cincinnati. I had my DREAM JOB, my own house (well, me and Wells Fargo bank), I made pretty much money, was debt free (minus the car and house payments), actually had money saved in the bank, appeared to have it all. I did have lots and lots of friends, it's a good thing, because I think they really helped me from being too depressed. Because under it all, I was kind of depressed, I was lonely - I had a terrible sex life - whoops, what I meant to say was NO sex life - I drank too much, I didn't do anything but go to work, hang with my friends at the bar. It was not the best thing to be doing.

But then, when he called me - it all changed and now a year after I moved here - it's still great, it's still exciting, we're still madly and totally in love, and we hope to be married soon. I hope to live in San Diego or a while longer, get Beka through college and then leave. But if it works out differently, we'll roll with the punches.

in the meantime, I'm going to enjoy my life, the happiness that I have and the love of the most important man in my life.
"Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired."
- Robert Frost

Friday, September 29, 2006

Heavenly Thoughts

Heavenly Thoughts

well I didn't realize it's been so long since my last entry. And as always seems that so much has happened but then again, like nothing special has happened at all.

I went to see Sheryl Crow with John Mayer. The show was really good. I don't care too much fro John Mayer, so I could care less, but the Shweyrl Crow show was GREAT! She was full of energy, life, enthusiasm and I was impressed. I had heard that the show in Cincinnati wasn't that great - more like a 'personality' contest and that she was too tired to give a good performance. I'm glad that it changed since that show and was much better in San Diego. Maybe because it's close to home for her, I don't know.

What else? Work is work, so nothing new there. Learning to be satisfied with what I have and my responsibilities and not worry about taking car eof more than I can handle. Or taking on more responsibility.

on a personal level, my honey is doing pretty good. he gets a little agitated from time to time and very fatigued due to the dialysis, but overall, he's alright.

The fam is good. all is well. Have a good weekend.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Feeling Better

Well, the PITY PARTY is over! Or at least I think so!!

I have been feeling sorry for myself. Missing my kids and friends, missed one of my friend's wedding this past weekend, worried about paying off credit cards, wishing we could afford a house here and I would like to lose some weight.

But then I came to my senses: I have the man of my dreams, we live in So Cali, the weather is beautiful, Beka is going to college, we are very happy, I have a decent job, we have enough money to pay all the bills and pay aggressively on the credit cards, I drive a corvette and we do everything together!!

So, enough!!

I could have it as bad as many of my friends: problems with their houses, problems with their children, issues with their jobs, problems with their relationships and spouses. I don't have any problems like that. Thank GOD!!

Monday, September 11, 2006

Is anyone out there????

Heavenly Thoughts

I don't think so, not any more. It's ok, I am basically using this blog as a form of self-communication - a journal as it were. But it would be good to know that someone reads it. I don't think so.

I guess that means I can say anything I want and have no fear of insulting anyone, not that I would insult anyone, but just in case. I can be pretty conservative....

Well, it's Sept 11th, pretty freaky day. 5 years since that fateful day that changed America. The loss of innocence. You know, it's like that song "the day the music died" - a total loss of innocence. Well, to all of those families that were affected on a personal level, my prayers and thoughts go out to you. For the rest of us, that were affected, we need to be strong for the rest. Our country is worth it...

One thing that everyone can do to help is to go out and VOTE every election, every time, for every thing. vote people into office that will help protect us, believe in this country.

AND SUPPORT THE MILITARY!! I'm going to help work on a Christmas list for mlitary families this Christmas - help support them, help cover their needs while their spouses are out protecting our freedoms!!

and the last thing I have to say today is gas is $1.99 per gallon in Cincinnati, Ohio and I am sooooooo jeaous! It's $2.79 in San Diego and a few places it's actually $2.74. And we're happy about it!


It's the first Sunday of another football season. I love it, but I'm the only one in the house that even likes it or am interested. It makes it kind of hard to keep up with my teams. Of course, I love THE CINCINNATI BENGALS!! I loved them when they were a new team, I loved them when Kenny Anderson led his team to a Superbowl game, I froze at the infamous "Freezer Bowl", I loved them when they were an embarrassment, I love them now!! It's so great and they won - WHO-DEY!

Now since I live in California, I'm the ONLY Bengals fan around - that's a bummer. So another year, with only 4 Bengals games that will show in my area. And I am the only one around that is slightly interested. I'm in the middle of Chargers land with a sprinkle of 49ers and Raiders fans. OY VAY!

Go Bengals - this year is YOUR year!!

Friday, September 08, 2006

Friday work

Heavenly Thoughts

It's Friday and I'm glad. It's been a short work week, but the work has been long. I am involved in so many things at work right now that sometimes it seems like too much.

And my neck is still hurting, so that is making it hard for me to workout. I haven't really been able to go, having a hard time moving my head more than about 60 degrees to the left. Then everytime I try to move it, all I hear are snap, crackle, pop. Been going to the chiropractor, it's helped pretty much until today. I woke up and everything seems to be back where it was originally. That's a bummer.

Bought gas today, $2.79/gal. I hope it keeps going down. I could use a little break in my budget. Still trying to get out of debt, paying on credit cards like crazy. One problem, everytime I get it paid down so it's starting to look manageable, something happens and I have to add back to it. It's frustrating, that's for sure. I would like to get them paid and not add to it. I guess that won't happen until I get to the very end, where I only owe the current charges. I can't wait until that happens!

Well, today is dialysis so I'll be taking my stuff over there with him and getting some of it done there. I would have liked to have more done today, but then that's my montra every day. I would like to be more productive. I guess everyone thinks that.

Well, have a great weekend! We're going to see James Gang, Joe Walsh and band, tomorrow night. We've had these tickets for a while. Then on Wednesday, we're going to see Bonnie Raitt. Both will be great concerts. PLUS we bought tickets to see Bob Dylan today - that will be really GOOD!! I got good seats too!

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

what a weekend!!

Friday Blog:
Wow! I am having the BEST day! I don't know why exactly but I know what probably contributed to it. I worked from home today and that was nice. I was able to get my laundry done while working and still have time to read my emails, write my doc and document the processes. AND listen to music while I was working.

I listened to Bonnie Raitt, Sheryl Crow, The Monkees (yes, I listened to them), early Bob Dylan, Donovan, Delbert McClinton, and lots more. Alot of happy music. Made me happy!!

Wrapped up the day be laying at the pool and then coming to dialysis with my sweetie. God, I love this man!!!!! He's so terrific, especially in this crazy world, to know I have someone so wonderful to be with, someone that keeps me safe, worries about me, cares about me and loves me. He is what makes me HAPPY!

PLUS, WE PAID $2.89 FOR A GALLON OF GAS IN CALIFORNIA!! WOWOWOWOWOWOW!!!!!!!! Prices haven't been this low since the beginning of the year.

(hey, hey, we're the Monkees.........) lalala!!

You know, I finally feel that I've come to a place in my life where I have the least possessions I've had in years, but I have the MOST happiness in my life. It's fantastic!!

hope you have a great Labor Day. I'm having some fun this weekend. Tomorrow is Martini Day. One of my friends is coming over and we are just gonna hang out and drink Cosmos and snack and talk, talk, talk! I haven't seen her for about a month, so we have lots to catch up on!!

Then Sunday and Monday, I'm going to learn how to make beads with my new bead stuff that my sweetie gave me for my birthday. I'll take pictures and show you know how it turns out. It'll be cool. I'll have the music blaring, the beads rolling and baking! Hope to come up with my interesting designs. Guess what everyone's getting for Christmas this year!!

gotta run! take care and enjoy!

Monday blog:
Fantastic weekend..I needed some R&R, I know I took off work last week for some R&R but I needed more. I really need a long vacation! Like months and months!! I would love that.

So, what did I do? Hung at the pool with Beka and Lauren, swam, relaxed, sunned myself, downloaded music, listened to music, played with Lauren's kids, waited for my friend - who was a 'no show', drank some martinis, made jewelry, played around, washed the cars and cooked. Overall it was FANTASTIC!! Labor Day weekend could happen all the time if you ask me!

What did you do?
"Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired."
- Robert Frost

Friday, September 01, 2006

Great Day At Work

Today we delivered a project that I've been leading for many months now. I was so happy to get the word that all is well. We demoed the software to the company today and everything looked great! I'm so proud of my team, it took alot of effort, lots of plates spinning, lots of meetings, lots of "interventions!!".

So, now it's time to move on to the next project and it's a doozy!!

I really enjoy my company, the employees, they have a great sense of humor, are very talented and intelligent engineers so it makes my job look easy. Thanks!!

"Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired."
- Robert Frost