Sunday, May 28, 2006

Hospital on Friday


We’re at the hospital today. He’s having vascular surgery, preparing his body for dialysis. I guess even though he’s been aware that it’s coming, it’s become more and more apparent with this surgery. He’s been really worried, nervous, and excitable. I know that I can’t possibly understand what he’s going through, but I certainly do empathize with him. I love and care for him so much, that I worry about how long I’m going to have him. It should have been a lifetime. I’m just glad that it’s at the beginning and the end. The middle was our learning time. God had a different plan in mind for us.

Yesterday, I was feeling kind of blue, worrying about his well-being, had a nightmare and woke up in shock and scared. I did a quick tarot reading and thought I’d share it. It’s very insightful and good advice for every day, but specifically excellent advice for our current situation:

Seven of Coins (card1)
Position: Love & Me
Main (positional) Meaning:
Your personal power is growing and romantic partners are taking notice.

The card in the Love & Me position touches on an aspect of how you perceive yourself right now.

The Seven of Coins in this position indicates your efforts toward being a self-made person are finally being realized and recognized by those you care about most. This card represents the slow and steady application of energy, season after season. You have kept at it, and your dedication and focus are bearing fruit.

It seems that you understand the magic of compound interest. Thinking like a farmer, you are willing to patiently tend your crop, trusting time and letting natural law multiply your harvest. The results are no surprise to you, but other people are beginning to notice. Keep at it and you will be known as a gifted person who produces value rather than just another consumer.

Nine of Swords (card2)
Position: Love Situation
Main (positional) Meaning:
Although difficulties and painful feelings may surround you, you can choose not to be swept up by them.

The card that lands in the Love Situation position refers to social or circumstantial factors which could be affecting your relationship at this time.

The Nine of Swords in this position points to some kind of a tragic loss. Although it may not impact you individually, the emotional impact of this blow does have an effect on a significant relationship. Objectivity and optimism seem to have flown out the window.

Although you may share some of the shock and grief of your loved one, you can choose not to succumb to feelings of desperation and hopelessness. It is important to remember this even if your loved one is feeling very down. The stability you have to offer this person during such a difficult time will long be remembered. You can support the healing process by keeping a clear head.

King of Cups (card3)
Position: Love Challenges
Main (positional) Meaning:
Evoke the wise elder to help you lift yourself and a loved one above problems and worries.

The card that lands in the Love Challenges position refers to ways that you can turn obstacles into stepping stones.

When the King of Cups is in this position, you may be challenged to find the wise, kind, and spiritual part of yourself. Bring this mature king energy forward so you can evoke, direct, or support the education or healing that may be needed in your relationship. Use forgiveness to help lift you and the one you care about out of sorrow, shame, or unfinished business. This may reassure all involved, including yourself, as to how precious life is.

This King of Cups is akin to a pope. Like him, you may find the wisdom and forgiveness to bestows blessings, benedictions, and absolutions. You may help others heal by reminding them of their inherent nobility. As you discover and activate this inner king, lend moral support to those around you. In doing so, you will benefit as well.

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