Live, Laugh, and Love

I try to stay positive. I think it's important to try my hardest, do my best and always try to improve myself. No matter what has happened to me in my life, I've tried to remain positive. And I've had alot of shit happen over the years.........money problems, relationship problems, parent/kid problems, job problems, drama, chaos and hassles. But through it all, I have tried to remember the God is with me, He alone carries me through every situation. He doesn't give me more that I can handle. And He blesses me beyond my wildest dreams.

I mean, look at the last few years. I made a list of all the attributes I wished for in a man. I prayed and asked God to help me find this man, to put him in my life so I could have a partner, someone to face every day life with, someone to grow old with, someone that wouldn't be in it for just himself. And what happens, a few months laterI get a phone call that changes my life.

I've spent the last two years living in California with him, waiting for the 'right time' to tie the knot. It's been wonderful, not necessarily perfect, but it wasn't supposed to be perfect. NOTHING is perfect, only God. But wonderful - it's definitely been wonderful. He spoils me, I try to spoil him back. We are partners, we face everything together, we love each other our whole lives, have known each other our whole lives. It's just been the greatest 2 years with him. It's fantastic!

We laugh, love, cry, care and LIVE for each other, for our happiness. It's great! It's what I always wanted. Thanks Honey!! You are the BEST! And our relationship is an answer to my prayers and a dream come true.

If I won the Lottery

What would I do?

First, I would hope for enough money to live on for the rest of my life.

I would pay off all of mybills, quit working, take my honey to another country and get a kidney transplant, buy a house in all climates that I love - big house with a pool in Tucson, Arizona, beachhouse in SoCal, Cincinnati so I could be near my family, cabin in the mountains by Boulder!! Oh my, that would be AWESOME!! Then I would want to buy cars for the kids, my honey and myself. I would want to buy some nice presents for my friends.

Then after that, I would just want to contribute to help others: start a college scholarship fund with competition for women in technology; I think I would volunteer at a battered women's shelter; take in rescue dogs to save them from the gas chamber and find them homes; and travel to visit my friends and my houses!!

Oh yea, I would visit Dr. 90210 and get an assessment for some lifts, tucks, and makeover items. :)

There is one key about the lottery - you have to play to win!! I quit playing after I NEVER won, so all I can do is.....

DREAM! Hey, a girl can dream, can't she??

"Here's all you need to know about men and women: Women are crazy, and men are stupid. And the main reason women are crazy is that men are stupid."

-- George Carlin

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!

Do you love your life? I sure LOVE MINE!! I have many things going for me and even though it's not perfect, it's damn close!! Closer than I've ever been before!

I mean, I have the love of my life back after 30 years and I have to tell you it's AMAZING!! We are so much in love even after all these years. If we had stayed together, we'd be celebrating our 35th anniversary this year!! And to be honest, we feel like it's always been this way. We were madly in love in the 70's and are still madly in love. It's cRAzY, I know, but we really have loved each other all this time and still do. We've only been living together for 1 1/2 years right now, but it's GLORIOUS!! I can't imagine my life without him.

And you know, he overlooks all my "idiosyncrasies" and loves all parts of me. I feel the same about him and it's wonderful.

I've waited my whole life to be loved like this and now I have it and I'm not letting it go. I am going to cherish him, love him, and take care of him no matter what! It's more than wonderful!!

And you know, the kids love him, the girls live with us and they think he's great! They see how much he loves me and that makes them very happy. All-in-all, he did manage to put things back together and make it all right!! Thanks, honey!!

"Here's all you need to know about men and women: Women are crazy, and men are stupid. And the main reason women are crazy is that men are stupid."

-- George Carlin

Dream about my Mom

I have to confess - the other day I saw John Edward, the psychic, on Glenn Beck's show on CNN. Someone called in and asked about "encounters" that they believe they are having with their dearly departed - how do they know if it's just them missing the departed OR the departed trying to come through. He suggests that we write down these experiences and then we can glean after so many if it's a period where we are missing them or where they were trying to communicate. So here goes:

Last night I had a dream about my Mom. [For those of you that don't know, my Mom died on Jan 30, 1992 of cancer - I quit smoking at that time.] In my dream, we (my cousin Carol, cousin Don, Mom, myself at my Aunt's (my Mom's sister) house. I think we were there because my aunt was sick, but I never did see her in the dream.

My Mom and I were talking, but I can't recall the details of the conversation at all. It was time for me to go, but I didn't have a car there. I was dropped off by a co-worker. I took my Mom's 1969 Dodge Dart and started driving up the street. I realized that I left my Mom stranded so I was going to pull over to ask if Don or Carol if they could drive her home.

Roland was walking down the street to meet with me. (specifically wearing the pink Ralph Lauren shirt I bought him - don't know if that's significant, but it stood out so clearly!) So, I pulled over to get him and call my Mom.

The next thing we were at my Mom's and she had passed. I parked her car in the garage and the garage door was made of paper, you know the kind that paper lanterns are made of - very strange. And to secure the car, we had to padlock to a post of some kind, including the battery - I don't know that part was weird.

We went inside her house and I remembered everything around, but nothing stood out except a piece of furniture that I've never seen. It was a buffet, full of linens and dining accessories. But it was VERY unique. It was a wooden and marble inlay pattern, very distinctive and totally unique. One drawer in particular was of interest to me. It was across the entire width of the piece and in the middle of the drawers. It was kind of a thin drawer, not very deep at all. Inside of it were smaller "blocks" of this same inlay wood and marble pattern, and linen napkins and so on were "wrapped" around the "blocks". It's hard to explain, but the blocks were attached to the drawer bottom with a hinge, so they would lift up and come forward, but stay attached to the drawer and I could remove the napkins and towels that were wrapped around them.

It was very quiet in my Mom's house and my entire focus was this piece of furniture.

That's it.

Now, I do have another dream from quite some time ago that has stuck with me that I feel I should write down to remember - so here it is:

It happened before I moved to California, but while I was planning the move. I was in my old room, in Reading. And I was sleeping (obviously) but in my sleep I smelled my Mom's perfume and she came to me and shook me to try to wake me up. I kept rolling over to try to stay asleep, but she kept trying to shake me and wake me. I resisted over and over again and then finally she must have given up because the shaking stopped. Of course, as things would go, when it stopped I woke up, sat up in bed and looked around for her to talk to her. I could still smell her perfume - she always wore Foxfire by Avon.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!